This Year I...

This year I....

The start to any New Year's Resolution begins with these three words.

We're two weeks in to 2015 and I've been allowing my thoughts to swirl around possible resolutions that I could adopt as my own, which has left me to ponder on what this year will bring. The year 2015 is going to be a record breaking year: I will turn 30,  will (finally) be a college graduate, and I will travel abroad for the first time ever.

Yep. I've got big plans for 2015.

As for the little plans, the little goals I want to accomplish? I want to live by my word, foster. I want to open my eyes and be recipient to the role it will play in my life this year. I chose this word because of what it means: The word foster means to encourage or promote the development of something, typically something regarded as good. To foster is to encourage, promote, further, stimulate, advance, forward, cultivate, nurture, strengthen and enrich. This is the word I feel I need for 2015.

This year I plan to focus on learning more about myself. In recent years I've found myself hiding in other peoples' shadow, playing the copycat game thinking that I'll find myself if I think/act/dress/look exactly the same as the people I admire. The truth is: doing that hasn't gotten me anywhere. I'm still as confused and unsure of myself as ever. Don't get me wrong, I know who I am. But this year I just plan to obtain a better understanding of what makes me who I am. I want to shake off the judging eye and stop spending so much time worrying what other people think about me. Instead, I plan to harness my energy and exhaust it on learning and growing in my own unique ways.

2015 isn't going to be easy. I have a lot on my plate, even after quitting my full time job, but I feel like I've already begun taking baby steps to reach the success I'm striving for. The real trick will be to remain cognizant of what I plan to accomplish throughout the year, and to reflect on my progress as the year goes on.

2015: lets do this.